I finally got a fully working Sega CDX. It is an amazing piece of hardware. So compact and full of amazing. I only had to fuss with it a little bit to get it working. The AC input had a little corrosion and it looked like it was bent down when it needed to be bent up slightly to keep the AC adaptor in snugly. So I used a push pin to scrape off a little corrosion and then got it under the little hump and bent it up slightly. Works 100%. The First Sega CDX I got has much more severe issues that will need further fucking with.

I was thinking though. The Sega CDX would be an amazing starting point for a portable Sega CD unit. If I were an electronic engineer I'd love to give that a shot.

Once upon a time there was a girl on youtube. This girl liked awesome things like Solid Snake and Travis touch down. She quickly rose to the top of the youtube gaming community and was posting tons of amazing reviews and interviews. She's met with and spoke to David Hayter the voice of Solid Snake and Big Boss the screen writer that brought us The Watchmen...a dream of mine...she was living the life! Thousands upon thousands of subscribers and fans watched every one of her entertaining energy filled videos.

Not only was she a girl gamer but she just oozes personality. You can really tell she was having a good time in front of the camera and enjoying every last bit of her youtubing career.

After months of immense internet success as that hot babe that knows what a Solid Snake really is she went on a hiatus. Fans were saddedened but the world kept on spinning. People wondered if she had died or just given up on youtube. She did for a while keep a blog site and would post occasionally about what she was playing and other gaming related articles. Then the site disappeared. She failed to renew her hosting. Bummer.

Then recently she took down her Youtube page and tweeted her farewells. This is where I start to get bothered. Of course it was sad seeing one of my first subsctiptions stop making videos...my weekends of watching SGI will be fondly looked back upon. But I could cope...I had in that time started making my own totally sweet gaming videos for youtube and getting involved with other awesome youtubers and things were good. Occasionally though I'd go back and watch her interviews with the voice cast of Metal Gear Solid, my favorite franchise.

What I'm having trouble understanding is why would she take down her youtube channel? She says it's to focus on her studies furthering her education. That's fine. I applaud her decision to do something empowering and positive in her life. But why the big slap in the face to her thousands and thousands of fans? Why can't I go back and watch an old video? How was it hurting her and detracting from her studies?

She tweeted

" I needed to focus on my life, not the show for awhile and figure things out. I don't think that's unreasonable."

It is not unreasonable, it's an excellent choice as a matter of fact. However a youtube account will exist forever provided you don't delete it. You can go to college, work a job, start a career, fuck you can even birth some babies all while not clicking on the Delete Account button. Quite easily. I dare say it's easier to NOT go through the hassle of logging in, going to the settings and clicking that link and just let the page exist in its current state. Not doing things is perhaps the easiet activity in which a human can engage in.

She also Tweeted
"Sorry, the videos will remain down. Please do not repost them. @********* with all the love comes plenty of hate."

Of course with fans and love comes hate and rudeness. That's the nature of the game. Not everyones going to like you. Some one hates you, yes you reading this post, someone hates you. That's life. So am I to believe that the thousands of people wanting more videos have been sending nasty comments and messages? Is that why she's pulling her page down? I certainly hope she has more self esteem and confidence than that, to let what random internet nerds say effect her life in any way. I have a policy regarding hateful or negative comments on my youtube page. I leave them up, hell I've even quoted some of them on my profile because they're actually pretty funny. Not just because they're a dip shit...just because the shit they talked was pretty harsh and I like that. I believe completely in freedom of speech and every single human being is free to look as stupid as they so choose. I encourage and support it. I will never delete a nasty comment, even if it bruises me ego or pisses me off, I sack up and accept that some idiot doesn't like me.

What upsets me is that she's basically saying FUCK YOU to every one of her thousands of fans. She's decided that I can't watch her videos. That is flat out selfish. Deleting her account serves no one but her. Her fans can be damned, apparently. What if four years later after she's finished school she decideds to make a new gaming related video? None of her fans will know it. Had she left her youtube page up she could notify thousands of people instnatly to her reappearence. According to her twitter page it too will be down by the end of the week. So she can't update her hundreds of twitter followers either.

I believe once a piece of media has been released into the world that it deserves to be preserved. For good or for worse that piece of media belongs to the World at large. There are litterally thousands of people that loved and adored each of her videos. People have watched them over and over and have found hours of enjoyment from Sadie's work. Sadly Sadie has decided you don't deserve to see them ever again. Her amazing interviews with big names in the voice acting and screen writing community have been taken down. Those are pretty significant pieces of work in the gaming press. Deleted for seemingly no reason other than some nasty comments? Or the fact that files existing on a media sharing website might somehow interfere with her education? I call bullshit.

In summary I support her decision to empower herself with further education and taking her life to bigger and better things. That's absoloutely amazing and I wish her all the luck in the World. However the decision to slap her thousands of loyal fans in the face by completely removing her presence from the whole of the internet is sensless and benefits only her but hurts thousands of game fans. Had she left the page up should she decide to do anything she'd have a huge fan base waiting for her with open arms ready to smile and welcome back her quirky energetic presence. If she does come back to the youtube gaming scene I might miss out on it all together, and that's just sad.

Leave me some comments here or on the youtube page that brought you here. I want to know what you think.